I lie in my skin


I can hear my blood pulsing through my veins

It seems that every cell, every inch of my skin strains to listen

I am frightened

Scared to death

My brain is racing ready to attack

I look out from my body of sweat and skin

I have been wounded before

Left broken and




I will not fail again

The hours go by but I do not move

I am safe. Secure

The days leech into each other

But I am safe. No-one can touch me. No-one can hurt me

I will not fail

The weeks slide into months

But I am safe. No-one is here

Just my bitter thoughts and dreams

I will not fail

The years crackle and fall

But I am safe. I am alone with my precious dreams


I will not fail

I am safe.

Carol Espinoza, 2014