11th February, 2014
Today something very beautiful happened.
It was life changing.
The very act stopped me in my tracks and made me re-assess some vital elements in my life. How I go about my work, how I engage with other people, who I love and adore, essentially how I walk in this world and be me.
The very act made me realise a surprising truth about myself.
And it brought me to a breathless moment; a single instance of pure white light; a thoughtful experience in the middle of a manic day.
Today my friend made me a cup of tea.
In my cup.
Two tea bags.
A luscious moment of being truly grateful for my friend. Unbearably grateful for a strong, sweet, hot cup of tea.
It wasn’t the being grateful though. Or the way my friend smiled at me when she asked me if she could make me a cup of tea. Or even when I started to get up out of my chair thinking I should really make the cup of tea myself – why was I letting my friend go to all of that effort, going out of her way to make me tea. Who did I think I was right? Who did I think I was to let someone go out of her way to do something for me? Who did I think I was to allow someone to help me.
Because that was it.
I was so tired. My head was a bit foggy, and I was looking at a list of tasks that needed to be ticked off before I went home and lay on the couch in an exhausted, depleted little mess.
I needed some help.
And I needed to let my friend help me.
I needed to allow my beautiful friend to make me a cup of tea. With her smile. And her love.
I often talk about how important it is for us to give to others, to ‘pay it forward’ with acts of kindness and compassion. It’s extraordinary that although we are the ones being kind, or generous, or loving, how life changing this is for our souls.
So we also need to accept, and allow others to care and give back to us, because in doing so we learn how to be grateful. In allowing someone to care for us, we experience vulnerability. In allowing someone to give back to us, we also allow for that person to feel the extraordinary life changing feelings in their soul.
So today something beautiful happened. My friend made me a cup of hot tea, and I gratefully accepted her gift.